Decisions and All that

Hi Guys, Happy New Year. 27 days in. I know I'm horribly late but I'm here now and that's what matters. So this week school began and I promise to give a detailed update on what university has been like but for now, a little tid bit will have to do.  I have friends that attend the sixth form block (U-tech) lol down the road from Uwi, which If you didn't know is where I attend. So yesterday I stopped by with my friends and just did nothing but that's not the point, I left late and nearly beat myself up over it because of the state of the environment currently.
 So on my way home I was plagued with thoughts of past events and all the decisions I made leading up to them so fast forward to now and I was just listening to a song that made me think and I realized that with every decision, there's what I'll call a counter decision.For example, If you decided to go to kfc , you've also decided to not save your money. Basically the decision you make without really thinking about it. Another example, If you decide to go out with your friends and stay out late without telling anyone you've also decided to put yourself at risk and possibly lose your guardian/parent's truST. Get it?  Yeah I think you do.
So in life we make decisions sometimes on a whim, sometimes they're calculated. Sometimes I think I make calculated impulsive decisions.
Yeah, that doesn't make any sense. But shush, it does. It usually happens in situations where I have to act quickly, think fast, so I make do with the time I have but the thing is, everything has waaay more dimensions and sub-options than you think and you never realize them until you're standing on a bus at 10:00 clock at night, sandwiched between random people, half-praying  nothing happens to you, half-focusing on not bursting out in rage over being way to dumb about things  and also in that moment you just simply have to suppress it for another day because you simply have no time for it.
But, It's okay to make bad decisions and it's good that you feel bad about them because we're never perfect and you have to remember that sometimes to ease the pressure and not run yourself into a ditch. alsoo everything can be solved. It's not always easy but I mean , is anything ever easy?

~"All these choices and decisionss!It's crazy'~ 

TwistedM